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I feel like I have so much I want to say but it's all swimming around in my head in a mush of unformed clouds and bubbles. Some of it is deep and meaningful, some of it is frivolous nonsense. So, where to begin?
I guess as it's NYE the best place would be a review of the year!
It's been a funny old year, mostly good to be honest. I've managed not to have any wild episodes of depression, I've had a lot of man action (!) and some fun times like a great holiday in Morocco and lots of weddings! I've also left my job of nearly ten years and one of my biggest goals for 2011 is to dramatically change career.
This past month has been a bit peculiar though. I've had a few, I suppose emotional is the best word, wobbles regarding my current living situation and the most frustrating thing for me is that it's all tied up in my head with my weight. I can't get over the thinking that 'this wouldn't happen if I were thin', which is mental, because all of the minor and insignificant incidents which have bothered me could happen to anyone. I've not broken a chair or a bed or walloped anything with my arse or something like that! The trouble is, I expect that this weird over dramatic paranoia will stay with me regardless of my size!
Anyway, enough of that, I just wanted to get it off my chest somewhere and shouting into the abyss seems as good a place as any!

So 2011? Here are my hopes:

~ To lose weight, duh! I'd like to lose 100lbs. I need to lose more but this seems like a reasonable goal for the year, reasonably tough but not out of the realms of possibility.
~ To find a job I enjoy
~ To meet someone special
~ To be consistently fabulous
~ To make a greater contribution to those less fortunate than me
~ To become financially responsible once and for all!
~ To have some wonderful experiences

Let's see if I can make it! And finally...

HAPPY NEW YEAR! I hope 2011 is WONDERFUL for you all!